Depression Treatment Care

Go see a doctor ASAP
I can relate to your apparent frustration, anger and sense of hopelessness. It is good to get it out.
Once the anger is released – look at a solution. It is hard to leave someone. Look in the phone book under Domestic Violence or Abuse – find support! It is out there but you have to look. Then make the break. You can do it! I know you can – take that first step….the hardest. Be good to you and love yourself. You will have so much courage and respect once you do. Your anger will be transformed into love.
Yep – I know – sounds corny. I have been there – and it takes time. I needed to be willing to be willing – and keep reaching out for help and following the suggestions (otherwise, why ask?) And you have done a big step