Depression Treatment Care

I’ve been struggling years but its seems to get worse its affecting all aspects in my life ,now family of 4,husband only income,its becoming tough for medical care ,my question what should i do next i already apply for SSD since august, nothing yet,,I dont know of what im more afraid ,not getting the help that i need or loosing completly my head.

I am about out of my mind. When she first moved in she was supposedly afraid of my son’s aggressions, now I sit back in awe because she never stops screaming once she starts. She uses foul language, calls my son awful foul names, and me of course. She has two children ages four and one who end up crying and screaming. What a mad house.

Like Ben Stiller, Robin Williams, Sting these people seem perfectly normal, how does someone actually know they have a mental disorder?