Depression Treatment Care

My sister has suffered from bipolar/manic depression for almost twenty years. On average she is hospitalised under section 2 once a year. The same cycle occurs each time; i recognise it early but either she does not take her medication or her outreach team do not respond appropriately. Often she hates me or other family with a vengeance and yet expeccts our undivided loyalty. Even now, every time it happens, it’s extremely distressing. I know it must be awful for her, but I’ve had enough. Feeling like this makes me feel very guilty. But i am tired, tired of hearing the same rantings, tired of being shouted at and physically attacked, tired of having hour long phone calls in which I am not allowed to say a word, otherwise she screams at me or cries non stop. I’m a single mum of two energetic boys and it takes a lot of effort to keep things together. I find my sister drains me emotionally, totally. This is selfish but i am so sick of her illness.