Depression Treatment Care

he sleeps a lot and has lost his libido doesnt eat much he is either acting silly really childish or opposite says no on loves him wants to be left alone and sulks he is very thin refuses to see he has a prob

I dont know what to do hubby is away in iraq and comes home around the beginning of sept. I am entering the severe depression stage again and severely worried about being left alone with my new born baby. Any ideas on how i get through this. I refuse to take medication. I hate the numbing feeling the medication gives me. Hubby helps control emotional waves. I am a sleeping and cold medication taker to sleep away the depression stage over all i dont know what to do…