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It is sad to say, but the Internet is a better place to learn about Bipolar Disorder than talking with any doctor or psychotherapist. I’m going to put my standard links below. I also created a list of 10 good books on bipolar disorder for anyone who wants to know about it. I hope this link works. http://www.amazon.com/simplewithmarthalisa-com-s-10-Must-Read-Books-on-Bipolar-Disorder/lm/R1J2GVIYBMFS9A/ref=cm_lm_byauthor_full/002-1640295-2104813
Here are a couple of free screenings for Bipolar Disorder:
Goldberg Bipolar Screening Quiz http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/bipolarquiz.htm
Free screenings at Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance:
http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=about_screening_screeningcenter
Bipolar Disorder Internet Resources:
Good Information than anyone can read:
From Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder
About.com: http://bipolar.about.com/
Support, Resources and Information:
Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance: http://www.dbsalliance.org
National Allisance for the Mentally Ill: http://www.nami.org
Bipolar Significant Others http://www.bpso.org/
Pendulum per support: http://www.pendulum.org/
Good Sources of Information:
National Institute of Mental Health: Bipolar Disorder http://www.nimh.nih.gov/publicat/bipolar.cfm
Medline Plus: Bipolar Disorder http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/bipolardisorder.html
MayoClinic.com: Bipolar Disorder http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bipolar-disorder/DS00356
Johns Hopkins Medicine: Bipolar Disorder http://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/epigen/bpwhatis.htm
emedicine from WebMD: Bipolar Affective Disorder: http://www.emedicine.com/med/topic229.htm
National Guidline Clearinghouse: Practice guideline for the treatment of patients with bipolar disorder (this includes the regulatory drug alters and warnings) http://www.guideline.gov/summary/summary.aspx?ss=15&doc_id=3302&nbr=2528
WebMD: Bipolar DIsorder http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder
PsycCentral:
Goldberg Bipolar Screening Quiz http://psychcentral.com/quizzes/bipolarquiz.htm
Bipolar Disorder http://psychcentral.com/disorders/sx20.htm
Online Resources http://psychcentral.com/resources/Bipolar/

I was diagnosed with this. I take medication to keep at a stable medium mood. But at times my moods drop into severe depression and even suicidal modes. Last night was the first night that every two minutes I delt with a different mood. Happy, crying, panic attacks, self destructive, suicidal, worthlessness, and a medium stable clear headed mood. Every two minutes was a change. I know my stress levels have increased due to factors in my life. When in a stable medium mood I almost feel “normal”. In times like these I think maybe I need to be locked away in a psych facility long term with no people contact and be isolated. My mind runs rapid. My chest feel like it will explode at times. I cant breath. Then I feel worthless and hopeless and unloved and cry. Too much for one person to handle. I take medication. Should I take more? Or a different kind? I am going today back to the doctor for a check up on the bipolar. Do you have any helpful info to help me deal with this battle?