Depression Treatment Care

Ok This might be a lil long but i want to tell you the whole story so you understand what happened so please bare with me. Please keep in mind while reading this for 12 days i did not see my new born daughter at all due to i was in the ICU.

Almost 6 months ago i gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. All threw my pregnancy i had gallbladder attacks several times a day. They were so painful but i refused the surgery while i was pregnant because i couldn’t risk loosing my child. A week after i had her i went into a severe attack which latest 3 days before i went to the hospital. They told me i had pancreatitis and my liver and kidneys were both shutting down. They also said i could have my gallbladder removed right then because i had pancreatitis. I was in so much pain they had to put me on a pain pump and wasn’t allowed to eat or drink anything for a total or 12 days while i was in the hospital. 5 days after i arrived i was in good enough health for them to have my gallbladder removed. They said it was sickest they have ever seen. While i was in surgery they cut my bile duct spilling bile all in my body. It was slowly killing me. The next day I was back into emergency surgery to have a stent put in. That stent didnt work it became blocked.2 days later they had to take me back into surgery for another stent which thankfully worked. While all this was going on My fiance broke up with called off our wedding and kicked me out of house. I had a mental breakdown in hosptial and was diagnosed as postpartum depression. I feel now real connection with my daughter i mean i love her to death i just don’t want to deal with her. Which is horrible and i feel like the worst mother on earth. Since then i have found the most amazing guy and we tried our hardest not to become pregnant but when i switching birth control from pill to iud i became pregnant.

I would like to know what other moms did to coop with postpartum depression? Raising kids so close together? and ANY HELP YOU CAN POSSIBLY GIVE ME. Please and Thank you all very much for taking time to read and answer this.
Never will i kill my child and yes i am on medication but it doesn’t seem to help. I am in counceling

Hi, I use to have very very bad stage fright.
I would stand in front of the class and my hands would tremble uncontrolably and my heart would beat so fast and hard I thought I would have a heart attack.

BUT

I went through manic depression for a year and a half and when I pulled out of it my stage fright was gone.
Now I can stand in front of hundreds of people and I would just say what I have to say. I still feel nervous but it is no way near what I use to feel.

I am just curious to know how this happened?
I am not complaining but I am very curious as to why it suddenly disappered after my depression?

i think i may have postpartum depression and anxiety… im freaking out about DVT…. my leg has been sore since i gave birth 11 days ago… ive gotten it checked out but im still having anxiety about it… can anyone help alleviate these fears?? about dvt after vaginal delivery

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 16-17 years old. I have been fine my whole pregnancy, but now that I know that I will be having the baby soon, I am worried about postpartum depression. I have horrible anxiety attacks and feel like I am running out of time until the baby comes. Instead of being excited like I was, I am kind of depressed about how my life is going to change. I know it sounds bad, but I cannot control it. I know deep down that I am excited, but I just cant seem to get over these bad feelings. I dont feel like I would ever hurt my child, just worried that I am not going to be close to him like I want to be. Anyone else been through this and have any advice for me? Serious answers only. I really dont want to hear anyones rude opinions, I feel bad the way it is. Thanks for the help!

I feel unusually restless and full of energy today…….I feel like running a marathon, climbing a mountain, swimming in the sea….feel like shopping till I drop, feel like partying …..

two days back, all I wanted to do was sleep….sleep and sleep, I just wanted to be left all alone…..

these mood swings are killing me….I don’t want to go on medication, they make me clumsy………..Is there any other way to deal with manic-depression?