Depression Treatment Care

The first few months were hard, then it got harder when my partner sank into a bottle grieving a friend with cancer (who died last month). I feel that my emotions are not allowed and that there is no point in talking about how I feel or things I want anymore.
I’ve been depressed on and off for years, but this is more painful than anything I’ve experienced before. I hate to admit it, but I’ve been self harming because I have no outlet for negative emotions and feel that I have to keep myself so carefully in check that I just daren’t feel anything at all or risk having a big row.

I almost never raise my voice to my partner or criticize him because if I do he will shout louder and more aggresively than I can handle. I feel miserable and frustrated and like I don’t count. Things I want don’t happen unless I push and push and push. Even things like trying to keep to a budget to improve out disaterous financial situation I have to push and push and he just won’t even admit that there’s a problem.

At the same time he tells me he loves me and that I am very important to him. But somehow not important enough that my feelings, desires, needs count for anything.

im 16, ive been diagnosed with manic depression. ive been self harming for a few weeks now. my mum knows and the CAT team know and they are thinking of hospitalizing me, im really scared what should i do?
how will it be in there?
will they let me out?

Ok, please excuse spelling & puntuation,
it will not be checked due to me writing this quickly because im still very shook up from what iv just seen.
My close friend Is a jolly, happy confident girl who has a boyfriend & a fue close friends,
I was aware of her “self abuse” past, but thought she was over it, on the count she now has a boyfriend and life seems up for her. But last night, she came to me saying “im bleeding”
i assumed she had just cut her finger or something, so i replyed “awww bless, get a plaster”, Then she added “so is my boyfriend” i was like, Hmm.. Ok then?.. It took a fue seconds for the penny to drop wich is when i asked “did you cut yourself babe?” she replyed “yes, i was on webcam to my boyfriend and he was on webcam to me, but he forgot his cam was on, and started to cut hisself, i watched the whole thing, then i cut myself, and he watched me” I asked to view the cuts,
so she started webcam to me, all up and down her arms were DEEP Cuts – Continue**

Mindfulness, if you dont’ know much about this research it on google and wikipedia. ^_^

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