Depression Treatment Care

I am 38 1/2 weeks and been trying to induce labor but have had no luck I feel very depressed and cry for no reason I have not thought of hurting myself or anything like that I just feel miserable and feel sick all over and started to have low self esteam about 2 weeks ago I feel that my baby is never comming out I have been 100% effaced and 1cm dilated for 3 weeks know and with my two other pregnancies I went into labor at 36 and 38 weeks I have a close family member that passes away on 12/17 and not sure if this plays a role in it but I am affriad and don’t want to mention anything to my ob doc or to my husband who all ready sesnse something wrong with me I am lost and affriad will I feel this way after birth or is this normal to feel this way?
mandeejo thanks I feel a little better knowing that I am not the only one feeling this way I want to tell my husband but I feel that he has so much to deal with all ready see this is his 1st time and my 3rd time and he has been workin mad hours at his job and I don’t want to scare him with anything since it has been a very rough pregnacy

Can depression cause your sight to narrow and your vision to be very spacey?

If not what else may be the factor? If it did not seem to be that you were actually losing your vision and that you needed glasses.

why and how is this?
is there a way to naturally balance the two sides or is the manic side really the right one?
thanks for your answers ?