Depression Treatment Care

I am asking ON AVERAGE.
DO NOT tell me to ask my doctor because I don’t see my doctor for a long time and I would like to know now. So I want someone who is educated on this kind of stuff to give me a VALID answer.

I’m ALWAYS fatigued, yet have so much energy until I crash cuz I’m so tired.
I am moderately paranoid.
I have constant shortness of breath, sort of like asthma, but I’ve tried inhalers but they don’t work.
I talk very fast.
I’m scittish.
Have bounds of happiness, then sadness for no reason.
Can anyone tell me what’s wrong? I hate this. I’ve had it for a long time, now it feels worse, and I have no appetite either.

one day i am ok and the other im not. i have been living with something for 34 years and i am 38 know i cannot get it out of my head and i dont have anyone that wants to be with me i have tried dating sites and all that. and still nothing. my ex gf is playing games with me and i cannot take it. all these things keep rolling in my head and i am just sick of it. know one calls me except for my step dad. my friends dont wanna hang out with me or nothing. i take a look back and all i see is what happened to me. the only way i can stop it is to just get rid of myself i cannot live like this

OCD can be mild to totally crippling. It may be as simple as checking your door twice before you leave to make sure it’s locked because it makes you feel secure, to checking your door 20-30 times, locking and relocking it to make sure its going to be ok.
Manic depression (bi-polar disorder is what i think you mean) is when someone is depressed but has happy periods of time too. When someone is manic it seems like everything is great their life, they may spend a lot of money, enjoy being more social, etc. But their moods can change suddenly and even the smallest thing can knock them off the tip of the happy iceberg.
Definatly look online for more resources. I hope you are ok.

Me and my husband have been married for 7 yrs and he said I have put him through hell with my mood swings and different personalities. He now says that he is tired of it and he don’t know what he wants to do. He has been hinting at a divorce yet still sleeps in the same bed. I am stuck and really don’t know what to do. What shall I do?