Depression Treatment Care

I’m a person with Bipolar/Manic Depression and when I’m stable I do just fine, I work and I’m happy and quite productive. But when I’m Manic I tend to have very erratic behaviour, such as running up credit cards shopping for useless items, stealing gas for a car and driving away speeding, zig zaging in and out of traffic being charged with reckless driving and other things like that.

I am sixteen years old, for the past seven years i have been battling manic depression, they just found a medicine to stabalize me and now that i have been in solitude for so long i don’t know how to interact with my brothers ages four and six, and my sister age seven. When they were born i was at a state where i never came out of my room, i remember when my sister was first born that i used to play with her all the time and i enjoyed it, even after the youngest was born i was at a state in my depression where i even enjoyed playing with them. I still have days when i am depressed and it is a constant battle to be happy, i just want to know what can i do with them, what games do i play with them…..basically how do i spend time with them where we are all having fun, i am a big kid-i love cartoons and kid games, i just don’t know what to do with them…any suggestions??????

I have chronic depression, anxiety, and am very manic, contemplative suicidal, and just need to get help, but where do I go, what steps do I take, I am alone in this and have no one to turn to for answers, where can I get this help?

I have bipolar II. I find that virtually every day I have the symptoms of it. Sometimes they are very acute, which can be extremely difficult, whilst other times they are very mild, but nevertheless still there (i.e. little downswings or upswings).
To be honest, there has only been ONE day in the entire past year when I had no mood swings whatsoever (i.e. felt on an absolute even keel all day long, neither sad nor unduly happy, but in the middle).
It felt SO GOOD. I wish I could have more days like that.
So my question for other folks with bipolar is, how often, or what proprtion of the days do you feel symptom-free, i.e. normal?
Thanks in advance for any answers provided.

Sometimes I feel like my life (mine) isnt really important and i feel quite intriguing pleasure when i think of death although im usually afraid to die, at times i find it amusing to imagine myself dying like getting hit or something and the last few minutes as i lie down looking up at the sky is so awesome. I think i look at myself tad too low now. I dont want to be splat all over the pavement. Then sometimes i feel like i can do anything in the world and my priorities all seem so light to me. I think im kind of lost in life. I cant and dont really want to seek professional help. Are there any alternatives to being ok again? I try playing guitar and i bought a new charvel and im someday gonna use all my savings to by a Randy Rhoads but i seem to have lost my passions as well. I just wanna dream away and maybe waste away. But im really afraid to seek professional help. Friends are ok but everyones so busy in college now. And i dont really want friends around. Am i bad?